Sunday, May 16, 2010

Here Again.

Here I am again. Unsure. Disappointed. Sad.

We broke-up. He's so mad/sad/angry/confused/scared right now. This all just seems surreal right now.

I felt so sad. We were happy sometimes but I've been in this place lately where our relationship was not what I wanted. My energy to drive two hours to see him was drained. My excitement for our weekends was nothing compared to the beginning. It was like another area of my life to juggle- not something enhancing it.

We got in a fight last night over dinner and I just couldn't do it anymore. It was an awful end to the evening. And he had to drive the two hours home after it. My sister is staying with me post-graduation right now so all of this happened with her in my house witnessing our tear stained faces when we came home, him getting his bag and leaving. And I'm still here, cooking, cleaning, walking the dog and being the strong one, acting like my life isn't completely upside down.


  1. I'm sorry you are going through a break up right now. It's so hard to just go the next day as if nothing has ever happened. Eventually, everything will work out in the end which I know is not want you want to hear. But stay strong. We're here!!

    xo anastasia b

  2. I don't know you, and you don't know me. but today i googled something completely random, and your blog popped up. i read the post that popped up,and then the next one and the next. 2 hours later, i have now read all of your posts and was SOO caught up in everything. i totally didn't see the Harry Break-up coming... and i cried. i didn't bawl. but i got a little teary eyed. and then i went looking for the next post to let us all know that you patched things up and everything is good... but it never came. so now i'm sad for you